All of them want Choreography ;)

Well I have always struggled with the concept, what do i love more, is it dancing? or is it choreographing? Well frankly i still can't decide.

For me its the creation, an idea that suddenly erupts in your mind which forces your body to move, that gives me the high! Something new, something original, or something downright quirky! It is in the mind that my ideal dancer is flawless and doing all the movements. He is not bounded by technique nor fear nor shame. He stretches the boundaries of what the human body can do on the dance floor and then some. He is his own canvas and his own paintbrush. Each part of the body moving in unison, or in rebellion it is a high very few people get i believe.

For me its also the dancing, the idea of trying to be that flawless dancer in my mind, failing everytime, sometimes even disappointing myself. But that is the beauty of an unrealistic target. You never cease to grow. When you land a step like its supposed to, you sit back sated and say , "my ideal dancer would be proud"! Its a process to improve upon past flaws. Perhaps it is the same reasons i never enjoy my old dances. because everytime i look back i only see flaws. Yes It may not be the most thankful thing to say about my art, But i would rather keep trying to achieve what i seek than rest on what i always have.

I guess, creating and dancing are both intertwined, with one i see my brain child in front of me, tangible. But while dancing I am my creation. And the joy of being the creator and the creation, is more potent than the most intoxicating of liquors :)

I hope i never ever have to choose what i like more !