Those cheap assed, foul mouthed, irritating pieces of my soul called friends ;)

I hate friends.

They make me a part of their lives and hardly ever expect anything back. They make me feel small with their generosity. They will comfort me when i am broken and make it seem like it is okay to be vulnerable in front of them. They just simply walk in pick me from pieces and put me back together. I hate being wrong and they come and show me what i did wrong but in a way that gives hope. They share their joys and sorrows with equal zest. They make me feel bad for not being able to share my sorrows with them because i think they shall be burdened. They make me smile and make me burst into laughter, that is good. But I hate it when they make me wanna cry if i am not there in their time of need. On top of that they make me burst into laughter when i am crying! so unglam! Why this brutality?

I do not make a great friend, i just try really really hard to be one. But I know many of my friends have become like my family. That gives me something to be proud of I guess. But what about the kind souls who made my day unknowingly. Do i call them friends? They do make me calm or satisfied or elated even in those brief moments of interactions I have with them. Why can't i keep them as friends? 570 friends on facebook! Is it too much to ask that we make all friends best friends! And who is that ass who said there is no sorry or thank you in friendship. In fact we should be using these two words more often in friendship. Being thankful for your wonderful friends is not rude, it is celebration. How often we go to our friends and say, thanks, you know, for everything! I tell my best friend, "shut up bitch! thanks for being my best friend", he replies "thank you too, fuck off!" Sweetest words ever. ain't it!

So if i screw up again, is it because someone will come and tell me "dude WE are so screwed". So many people hate me, i will take that any day if i know there are a handful who will say "you are better that them!" I am blessed because I found my friends who weren't afraid to get their hands dirty with me. I am also blessed because I found friends who would be close to me everytime they say, "You suck!" or "You are bad!" or "You know i hate you right" :D

So on this friendship day, whoever, is , was or will ever become my friend, i thank you for rescuing me. For pushing me to be better than my fears. For just being you!

I love friends

:)

A beautiful smile :)

Nothing kills me like a cute smile! ;)

I am a stickler for a few things. Everytime I have a chance to meet someone new there are a few things i look out for. It is just like a mental exercise to assess a person. As the say "eyes are the window to the soul of a person", but I being a shallow person ;) do not dive in to the matters of the soul. I look for the smile instead. Also you are being rude if u stare too long into the eyes! :P

Over the course of my life i have had the privilege of meeting some wonderful people, strangers at first, part of my life now. When I sit back and think, why is it that some people become life long friends and with some it does not work out? I realize all my special people have either a beautiful smile or a full throated laughter. Over the years this had developed as one of the preliminary checks to find out how we might click as time rolls on :) (No, it is not fool proof yet! :P ) . A smile tells me a lot about the person. Firstly we all been through times where our eyes meet another person's and instead of smiling we turn our gaze. I find it too awkward at times. But if we smile regardless of whether the smile is returned it makes the situation a little better, doesn't it! A smile gives me that positive vibe from the person, sometimes warms my heart, and in some cases our worst days are made better by their smile. Check 1 complete!

Secondly, for me smiling is a sign of courage. It is surprisingly very hard to smile these days. Far too many people say there is no one there to make them smile. I feel for them. If we all wait for someone else to make us smile, what will become of us. I learnt from one of my lovely friends (no points for guessing, with a lovely smile) that "in whatever you do, celebrate you". Such a simple yet beautiful message. And yes it did make me smile. In life I am sure we all are bogged down by circumstances, but i believe the very first step starts with a smile, it makes you feel yes may be it is not that bad after all. If you can find the courage to make yourselves smile through the mess, you can certainly find the courage to overcome as well. So smile your blues away :) Check 2 complete!

Smile and Laughter make me feel alive. When you are in the company of your loved ones, we are all programmed to remember the happy times. I make it a point to remember and cherish my happy smiley times with each and every person i know at the university. That is why i love batch outings and batch dinners at PGP canteens, everyone with a smile on their faces. For those 10 15 minutes I thank all of you. A beautiful smile tells me you are a beautiful person. Few years ahead when i remember my friends and loved one's with fond memories, i want to able to exactly how their smile was, a chuckle, a giggle, a throaty laugh or just a silent vibration. Smiles heal you of anger, sorrow and envy. So all my beautiful people smile for me :) Check 3 complete!

I shall end this piece with one of my favourite quotes and a personal belief!

"I cannot make you smile if you do not wish to, but if you wish to, I can promise to make you wish you never stop laughing!"

:)

Passion

"If you have ever felt such tremendous enthusiasm and desire for something that you would gladly spend all your waking hours working on it, that you would happily do without pay, then you have found your passion."
-- Sharon Cook & Graciela Sholander

Passion, often used in vocabulary, seldom found in reality. I am fortunate to have found the means and the strength to surrender completely to my passion. But I have seen too many people giving up on what they are passionate about for a want of time, energy, means or even a lack of character. I feel sorry for them. I believe everyone should have that one thing in their lives that consumes them entirely, possesses them, gives them the push to stretch beyond their capability and the intoxication that comes with it! Found some of these quotes online for inspiration, i hope it helps you as it has helped me

Great dancers are not great because of their technique; they are great because of their passion.
-- Martha Graham

If there is no passion in your life, then have you really lived? Find your passion, whatever it may be. Become it, and let it become you and you will find great things happen FOR you, TO you and BECAUSE of you.
-- T. Alan Armstrong

If you have ever felt such tremendous enthusiasm and desire for something that you would gladly spend all your waking hours working on it, that you would happily do without pay, then you have found your passion.
-- Sharon Cook & Graciela Sholander

It is the soul's duty to be loyal to its own desires. It must abandon itself to its master passion.
-- Rebecca West

Making sure our goals are properly aligned with our passions only makes sense.
-- Josh Hinds

Never underestimate the power of passion.
-- Eve Sawyer

Nothing great in the world has been accomplished without passion.
-- Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

Only passions, great passions, can elevate the soul to great things.
-- Denis Diderot

Passion is in all great searches and is necessary to all creative endeavors.
-- W. Eugene

Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.
-- Joss Whedon

Passion that is so deep within that all we need to do is release the passion inside so that we become energized with a newness that all will want to share in.
-- M. Lee

So try to pursue the very things that you are passionate about- that is the difference between good and great!
-- Shawn Doyle

The greatest gift is a passion for reading. It is cheap, it consoles, it distracts, it excites, it gives you knowledge of the world and experience of a wide kind. It is a moral illumination.
-- Elizabeth Hardwick

The more intensely we feel about an idea or a goal, the more assuredly the idea, buried deep in our subconscious, will direct us along the path to its fulfillment.
-- Earl Nightingale

The most beautiful make-up of a woman is passion. But cosmetics are easier to buy.
-- Yves Saint Laurent

We all need to look into the dark side of our nature - that's where the energy is, the passion. People are afraid of that because it holds pieces of us we're busy denying.
-- Sue Grafton

With out passion you don't have energy, with out energy you have nothing.
-- Donald Trump

When work, commitment, and pleasure all become one and you reach that deep well where passion lives, nothing is impossible.
-- Nancy Coey

All of them want Choreography ;)

Well I have always struggled with the concept, what do i love more, is it dancing? or is it choreographing? Well frankly i still can't decide.

For me its the creation, an idea that suddenly erupts in your mind which forces your body to move, that gives me the high! Something new, something original, or something downright quirky! It is in the mind that my ideal dancer is flawless and doing all the movements. He is not bounded by technique nor fear nor shame. He stretches the boundaries of what the human body can do on the dance floor and then some. He is his own canvas and his own paintbrush. Each part of the body moving in unison, or in rebellion it is a high very few people get i believe.

For me its also the dancing, the idea of trying to be that flawless dancer in my mind, failing everytime, sometimes even disappointing myself. But that is the beauty of an unrealistic target. You never cease to grow. When you land a step like its supposed to, you sit back sated and say , "my ideal dancer would be proud"! Its a process to improve upon past flaws. Perhaps it is the same reasons i never enjoy my old dances. because everytime i look back i only see flaws. Yes It may not be the most thankful thing to say about my art, But i would rather keep trying to achieve what i seek than rest on what i always have.

I guess, creating and dancing are both intertwined, with one i see my brain child in front of me, tangible. But while dancing I am my creation. And the joy of being the creator and the creation, is more potent than the most intoxicating of liquors :)

I hope i never ever have to choose what i like more !

Motion Pictures Inc.

Lights, Camera, Action! (O directors of the world, I envy you, You Inspire Me)

Movies! Yes that brilliantly crafted story that is projected on to the 70 mm reel, but almost always finds its trajectory to our hearts. That three odd hours of a canvas littered with various colours and hues of action, comedy, romance, horror, passion and valour. I am a fan, but more importantly I live my life through movies. Trust me I am not exaggerating! There are little bits and parts about the movies that we see that become ingrained in our minds, something almost like a second nature. Think bout it, which one of us secretly hasn't desired to be suave with the ladies like a certain Mr Bond, James Bond. or be your own underdog winner like Rocky Balboa of Philadelphia. Heck I have looked at my reflection again and again and said, "I will be back" like the Terminator. (No I have never said to my reflection that "Mere Karan Arjun Aayenge!") But yeah the point being we all want to be heroes, heroines, even some cool villian like Marlon Brando and make offers that no one can refuse! It is from the movies that i gain the inspiration to perform and create and choreograph. It fascinates me how a single idea in the writers mind ultimately comes to life on to our screens. Sometimes the result is fascinating like "A Beautiful Mind" or as awe inspiring as "The Gladiator" or "Brave Heart". But lets not fool any body here. Not all movies are great, at least commercially, but even among these unsuccessful ones littered with bad acting even is that interesting phenomenon called creating. I am amazed by how we sometimes become our own cynic and it takes something as fictitious as movie to make us believe. No self respecting Indian would have sat down quietly and not let out a small sense of jubilation when Captain Russel lost and our Lagaans were forgotten!

I , personally am always moved by the movies. I know how to love, movies show me how to express it like Jack and Rose. I know how to fight, movies teach me how to get up after each fall like Mr Rocky Balboa. I know how to dance, Movies teach me to feel lucky because there are millions out there who want to dance but never get a chance. I know how to be a cynic, movies give me hope that happy endings do exist. I know how to make you laugh, Movies teach me how to make you laugh till you cry like Charlie Chaplin :)

I hope someday I find my Titanic, because from there on shall begin the journey to my Avatar!

Pack Up!

Why do i dance?

Rhythm

Pulse

Chaos

Clarity

Why do i dance?

The rush

The freedom

The risk

The elation

Why do i dance?

To live

To breathe

To be breathless

To kill

Why do i dance?

Love

Lust

Greed

Vanity

Why do i dance?

I would never know. :)

Me, Myself, Moi :D

My First Blog...

Writing is natural, but words do fail me at this point of time. The showman in me wants to explode on the blogosphere as the next big thing. The shy, insecure kid in me urges me to keep it private and not let anyone know how vulnerable I can be. The funny one says screw it all, start with some inappropriate joke, like something funny about sex, or women or in-laws. Gosh this is hard, how much do i want to tell people. Thinking of ridiculously difficult dance routine comes to my head like snap, but writing this blog, even Critical Writing and Thinking module in university didn,t prepare me for this. Oh snap, blog fail! Wait!! Think what do I love doing...erm...talking bout myself...see thats a start! :D

Ok This is me. Akash Abhishek

Eternal Dreamer, part romantic, part realist.

Striving real hard to bring somethings back into fashion, like , chivalry & oh cuff-links!

Has a real hard time conforming

Dancer...story-teller

Lover...Fighter

I am Akash