The university is a great leveler. One moment it makes you wanna prance around proudly as a peacock in heat, while another moment it makes you wanna curl up into a ball and never get up. When they said these will be formative years of your life, no one said what form are we supposed to take. "I have no idea" takes its truest meaning in university. Your greatest highs and your deepest lows are a few days apart. Just when you feel like you have gotten hang of things, perceptions change, concepts change, the ability to change changes! You sit down and make a long list of all that you achieved in university, someone else's is longer. You think you made friends for life yet in your saddest moments you find yourself alone wishing it was raining and you could wash away all things sad. Control is overrated. We hardly control any aspect of our life. I know I don't. But being lost in the crowd is what I am afraid of the most! I am still scared of my weaknesses. Four years have not taught me to deal with them. They have taught me to hide it better. One moment I am dancing, almost in a trance! until reality hits you and you see nothing tangible. The world says you dance? so what! I have tried so hard to be unique that I succeeded, just like anybody else. Being special, is it really necessary? FML?
Do not listen to the pessimist in me, I have also learned to smile when I hit rock bottom because there is just one way and thats up. I have not only dared step out of my comfort zone, I have taken a maverick gypsy holiday far far away from my comfort zone. I have achieved most of what i set out for. Uni forces you to be your own person, I believe that is the best way to learn about yourself. Before I go about answering great mysteries of the people around me I like to solve the one within. Happiness is not subjective. It is definite. It is within. I have heard harsh words, I have had life changing conversations. All in uni. I have made someone cry with laughter, I have made someone laugh while crying. All in uni. I have learnt to hate selflessly and I have learnt to love selfishly. I can sleep peacefully most days thinking I touched someone's life. I find new ways to be happy. I find simpler ways to be happy. I can stop doing whatever I am doing and do something else just because I feet like. I am nerd, I am a noob, I am a jock, I am stud, I am a jerk, I am a gentleman, All in Uni. So if today was bad, tomorrow would be worse. So tomorrow I would say yesterday was great :) this i learnt in Uni. MLIA
cheers!
